My two beautiful girls. I haven't seen them since the beginning of december and i miss them dearly. There's no indication as to when they will be coming home, as they won't be coming home until their brother has had his surgery and is well on the Road to recovery.
We still don't know when that will be. The fever he had isn't whats keeping him from going. It's shortage of beds.
I feel cheated....... my baby is 14 weeks old and i have had a total of 4 weeks with him. yes he will be home someday...... but until then he lies in a crib where i have to ask to hold him. he lies in a crib developing a flat spot because he can''t have tummy time. he doesn't do the normal things a normal 3 month old baby does beacuse he is exhausted to do anything except fight to just exist. i feel pangs of guilt every time i leave the ICU to go sleep or go run errands. I know no one holds him when i'm not there, the nurses have other patients and there are only so many volunteers. I know he just lies there staring at the ceiling, Not getting any stimulation.
It's all finally getting to me.......:-(
You are a wonderful mother Arlene. You have your hands full and an overwhelming plate that has been handed to you. You are being such a wonderful steward of it. And Castian will have plenty of time to grow in development! I pray that you have rest and strength and quiet moments when you feel peace and assuarance. I pray for Castian, that God would make new his heart through the surgeons' hands and that you wouldn't have to wait much longer. I pray that his recovery is quick so that he can start getting into things :0 and get to go home. May all of your family be reunited soon. Much love and hugs to you from St. Louis. God bless you Arlene.
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