It's been almost two months now since we had the down syndrome diagnosis. At the time i didn't know what this meant for us, for our family. I was scared and felt cheated out of an average baby. I was scared beacuse I was so Uninformed, So uneducated, and mostly just Fear of the Unknown.
I have since come to realize that this Is probably the best thing that has happened to me, to us. We were CHOSEN for this. It doesnt happen to everyone and everyone i talk to telling me it's a Blessing. I believe them. That he will bring so much to our lives.
No i don't have my Castian to hold in my arms yet. But I feel him, i feel every kick and every turn. He is still the Baby we wanted to have together more than anything. He is loved and I live in constant fear that we will lose him. Every week, every day I am thankful that i have gone one more day, one more week.
At this point i would be dissappointed to find he was just a average baby. I feel for all those parents that chose the alternative when they recieved positive results. That they out of fear, chose because they didn't want to be burdened or just didn't know just how having a child with DS can change thier life for the better.
We love our baby and are excited to meet him. he too us is our angel and are blessed
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